About me

One day you will wake up and there won’t be any more time to do the things you’ve always wanted.  Do it now.

~ Paulo Coelho, 1947-

Hello.

My name is Dee and I’m a Texan living in London (England!) for 20 plus years. I love this wonderful, city and was enjoying it when…

B-O-O-M! Hodgkin’s Lymphoma 4b. It took me a while to marry that up: Hodgkin Lymphoma = CANCER. To me, Hodgkin’s was an imaginary disease mentioned with a sharp intake of breath during CSI New York. 

The start of this gig was close but I am still here. The following years have been a loop of treatment, remission, treatment, recovery, relapse, treatment, remission, treatment, remission, recovery, relapse and so on. It feels like I’ve had every scan, prod, poke and chemo possible. 

I feel a desperate sense of time running out. Recently, while debating bucket lists (pro or con?), I realised that there was something I forgot to do. Write. Not for fame but because I love words, and combinations of words, and stories that make you laugh and weep and feel. It’s sad that it took this ever-threatening disease to remind me of my passion.

I called the site It will or it won’t… because I came to understand how much of this journey is beyond my control. Treatment will work, or it won’t. I will live, or I won’t. I have limited influence on either outcome. It’s uncomfortable and painful but nonetheless true.

Along the way, I also learned not to look too far ahead. That what matters is today.

I learned to do things now.

And I started this blog. It’s about life, living, Hodgkin’s lymphoma and whatever else takes my fancy.

Thank you for reading.